I
thought it was something that I could hold on to, but you let go and it tore me
into a million pieces.
You
came back. I let you in.
Somewhere
along the way, I knew there was something wrong, but my heart won’t accept any
reason.
When I
had to let go of you in the past, my eyes never drifted away. I was still
looking out for you in the open. That is why every time the waves took you back
ashore, I tried to grab everything that you have to offer - a minute of your
day. When the tide started to pull back, I was like a shattered coral. Broken.
Lifeless.
Until
one day, I heard the Lord’s voice. “Loosen your grip and let go.”
I
don’t want to.
But
the Lord won’t accept no for an answer. He took my hands and shook it fiercely,
so strong that my grasp weakened. Then, He laced His fingers over mine without
leaving a space in between even for a thread. I can’t hold on to anything
except for His mighty hand.
And
His eyes were looking only at me. Merciful. Loving. Fatherly.
My
eyes started to swell, but I do not have the will to look somewhere else. I
kept staring at Him.
Unblinking.
Unmoving. Afraid. Anxious. Bewildered.
He
said nothing.
Silence.
By the
time His hands slowly released mine, I looked out into the vast ocean. You are
nowhere to be found. Not a single trace of you.
And
now it dawned on me, only one reason made all the difference.
GOD.
I
never knew it would be this easy this time. The only thing that changed is my
focus.
Before, it was just you and me.
Now, it is God and I.
Now, it is God and I.
No one else.
